the casualties are mounting & i fear for hubs. he doesn't complain, but i'm not sure how much longer he can stay up in that tree. eventually he'll need to eat & heaven knows i'm not cooking anything.*wish i could say what causes this stormy state of being, but it defies explanation. defiance is sort of the point.
i can provide a list of complaints, but none of them is really the answer:
:: she's feeling weary (do you know what i mean?)
:: she relapses into an older, worser self & she feels remorse
:: she fails to do everything the way she prefers it to be done
:: she has a hernia. this is actually pretty funny** but also totally true
:: she needs a few days of blue
so, what do you think? how blue is too blue?
and what do you do in stormy [inner] weather?*did you know a female adolescent wolverine can strip a man's forearm to the bone in less than 30 seconds, and then eat that bone? (probably)
**in a sad way
8 of you said:
Hang in there. I know it's hard. Life with 2 kids is a very difficult transition. Especially if you feel you aren't doing enough. I had to make things really, really easy for myself.
I scheduled my life. I decided and still do laundry 2 days a week. Mondays (lights) Fridays (whites & darks), towels & sheets were scheduled too, but not anymore. I made up a weeks/months worth of menu. That way I just had to open up the cabinet and see what I was to make. No decisions involved. I now have Mondays (pasta) Wednesday (breakfast for dinner) Friday (pizza) Sundays (crockpot) The other days need scheduled too I just don't have the energy to do it. But I'm not going to later either, so I better get on it!
Believe me I was moody and angry sometimes. Webby worked nights so I was alone with 2 kids 4 nights a week. The kids went to bed at 6:30 (A who was a new born) and 7:30 (S was 3) I needed to time alone. A never took really long naps and gave up the 2nd nap pretty early. But she got her sleep at night. It was the only way I got through.
So cut yourself some slack. It will get better. It just takes time. Do the best you can to take time out for you. Do what you need to do to make your life easier.
I love you. Call me if you need to talk!
Some thoughts from one who knows, to be considered as needed. Or not.
Blue days are there for the taking in unlimited supply, remorse free.
Miss Sherry deserves gentle treatment from herself. She is who she is, and all her important people already know that about her.
*Should* and *ought* are naughty little naggers, deserving of obliteration.
One Excedrin taken midmorning with a snack can be inspiring.
oh lady, i hear ya. sometimes i get to feelin all stormy and blue and i think about how fortunate i am and how much support i have, so i can't splain why i'm stormy and blue, which makes me stormier and bluer.
i agree with neesh-dawg. be gentle with yourself. you are a lovely person. really.
you all are the BEST. thank you! i am feeling much, much better already. for real.
glad you're feeling better. thought you might like this post http://www.dooce.com/2009/06/25/44-time
Thanks for sharing, Sherry. Don't want anyone to feel blue but it is so much more normal than you might ever guess. Just spent a week like that last week and there was no apparent reason for it.
Glad you're feeling better. Hope you still are. You can always call me too if you want. I am your mama's sis and that means we have some of the same genes, right? Or you can email.
Neesh, I love what you said about "should" and "ought". Truer words were never spoken.
Being blue is sometimes like being in labor. It's different every time and sometimes medication can really help. Or deep breathing. One of those. And definitely ice chips.
You're doing a great job, Sherry. Even on the bad days or frumpy days. You're awesome.
so glad it's not just me. I think you should go hide in the bookcase like Little.
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